Walking Away
Sometimes you don’t have a choice. Walking away from someone you love the most seems to be a better decision. Loving is easy but nobody ever explains how letting that love go can cause an entire tornado in life. My life revolved around this same mess again and again.
Hi! I am a 21 years old girl who is bubbly, cheerful, a little mad, and has a heart filled with immense Love. Just like every teenager even I fell in love with of course a very young and handsome boy because why not? He was smart, tall, loving, and a caring guy and who doesn’t want a guy like him. Seeing all these qualities I fell for him. Looks perfect, but it is not. This guy was younger than me and the cherry on the cake was that he was my family friend or I should say he was a part of my family. We had a very secret relationship. Secret meetings, secret lovemaking, far away eyes talk, taking out a little time for ourselves when nobody is around. I was living a fairytale life with this guy. He made me feel special with every passing day and falling in love with him became easier which made me forgot the whole reality of our life. He is younger than me gave me no chance to spend my life with him because our families would never understand our love. But it was so late for me to understand this because I was already in love. Walking away from him was a nightmare for me. This mess was not going to last long because a decision was mandated. We both had our careers, we both had dreams, and just what I was scared of happened in my life. He decided to leave me and of course, I will not blame him for this because this was gonna happen someday or the other. He is younger than me was behaving more maturely than me. I bashed him with my words, my anger left no chance for me to even understand what is going on. My love for him was so crazy that it was hard for me to believe that he left me. I said all possible things to calm my anger but nothing happened. He was my childhood love and seeing him going away from me was riping my soul. He left and I was still there. Missing him, crying for him, blaming myself for being older. I am sure he faced the same thing but never mentioned it in front of me. After months of sadness, I decided to make things better, talk to him and finally move on. And, with my heavy heart, I moved on. Even while I was telling him this I was crying because this was the time when I was Walking Away. I walked away from my love, I walked away from my fairytale.
So here’s the thing……. Even after everything I still love you and miss you beyond words. I miss you being close to me and kissing me. But the thing is, no matter how much I love you, I’ll have to love myself more. I have to get over you and let you go no matter how hard it is. This time I’ll fall in love again and surely I will but this time it won’t be a person, this time it will be just me. I won’t waste one second on regret. In simple words, I will love it the way I loved you. UNCONDITIONALLY.
